Long, Hard Weekend

It is so great having Gary home from the aspect of not having to drive back and forth to Hoag everyday. I know he is much more comfortable here and the boys need to be with him more often. It is much easier for me to take care of him and to be able to get work done both for the church and at my house. I love having him back in our home.

However, it has been a little bit of an emotional transition for all of us. I told you that Gary feels guilty that he is not able to help. The boys are having a difficult time with their emotions and I know they are confused and a little bit scared. They have all had a little bit of separation anxiety as of late. As far as I am concerned I am really tired. Not physically tired but emotionally tired. Seeing Gary so sick all of the time gets to me. If you have not seen Gary in a few weeks you would probably be a little taken back by his appearence. Cancer does awful things to your body. Gary is painfully thin and his face has narrowed significantly. His eyes are sunken in and he has very dark circles under them. He lays in bed very still most of the time and struggles to lift his arms and legs. He has no energy and tires just thinking about doing anything more than being in bed.

Now, could this change? I really hope so. Gary's blood pressure has been very low and I have a sneaking suspicion that Gary is severly anemic. I thought he was dehydrated so I filled him full of fluid through his G-tube to see if is made a difference and it did not. So after doing a little research I think everything points to the need for a blood transfusion. We will see tomorrow after our visit at Dr. Barth's office.

Home Group came over tonight and we had a great dinner - flank steak, salad, bread, terriaki chicken, appetizers, margaritas, mac&cheese and dessert to top it all off! We always have a great time together but the best part of the evening was when everyone gathered around Gary and prayed over him. Gary has needed that for so long and our group is super wonderful!

Our neighbor Bette is not feeling well and her body is basically being invaded by cancer. It is all over her body and in her bones. I would love for everyone to keep praying for her and for the people that have come around her. She is a special lady and still from her hospital bed is barking orders and feistier than ever!
Nights in the Sallee house are long and I need sleep so I had better go now and sleep while I can. After all, I am Tivoing all my NEW shows! Fall TV is great!

Keep the prayers coming and hopefully we will have some concrete things to pray for this week. He is still in awful pain and we can continue to pray for the pain to subside.

Have a great Monday!!
Love, Lisa