1st FULL DAY AT HOME

We will start out this entry with random "drug haze" thoughts from the patient himself. Here goes.........

Lisa: Gary, What do you have to say?
Gary: The only thought I have is that it is good to be home. It is not perfect (we all know he is not talking about me when he says that!). I can't thank everyone enough for helping Lisa and our family to get us through this hard time.

...........................time elapsed.......................no other thoughts and a deep stare has developed. In fairness to Gary I just gave him about 9 pills and a fairly strong pain med. We are watching the tail end of Greys Anatomy. I missed the first 45 minutes of it but low and behold I have Tivo!!!

Today was a very long day. This is a learning curve for both of us. Gary's first day home was filled with mixed blessings. The trueness of Gary's character always shows through even during this time. He was upset today and I asked him what was wrong and he said he was happy to be home but he was very sad and upset that he can only lay in bed while he watches me run around in 50 directions to take care of everything. Once again he is thinking about me and the boys. He feels useless and I totally understand that.

Thank the good Lord he is not a control freak or he would really be in trouble emotionally. He has truely given it up and given it to God and we fight and wait and gain strength for whatever the Lord has planned for our lives. I told him that if he were at work I would still be doing most of this stuff BUT he would never know because he wouldn't be home! So there!!!!!

Gary looks good. He is bald and I have threatened to bronze that head if he does not sit out in the sun a little. He has lost about 20 pounds and his muscles have atrophed significantly. His hair will grow back and he will eventually get more muscular. He just has to do those three little things that we have been talking about - EAT, WALK and TALK. Talking has not seemed to be a problem for him. He has been fairly social when people have stopped by. He has not had many visitors but today that was probably for the best.

Bonnie is going to come over so that we can put Gary into my car in the morning. The wheelchair that was delivered was wrong - BIG and HEAVY. I need the lightweight one and that will not be delivered until tomorrow afternoon. Gary also needs a bed extender because his feet are at the bottom of the bed.

My Mom is leaving Saturday for a few weeks. It is so incredible having her here. The boys adore her and I know they light her life up! Just having her in the house has been such a relief during this time. We will miss her terribly. She is wonderful!

The boys swam after school today. What's up with the 98 degree weather? It was awfully hot today. I hope it cools down a little bit tomorrow and through the weekend.

I have so many of the world's greatest girlfriends! Everyone should be so lucky. I feel so incredibly blessed by their friendships. I never had a sister and never thought I would have such great friendships. Once again, God keeps on pouring out the blessings.

We will be at Dr.Barth's office tomorrow from about 9:30 until 2:00 PM. It will take about 1/2 that time to load Gary into the car!!! HaHa. I can get away with saying that because he does not read my blog. Even so, I would say it to his face probably! I have no idea what we are going to do at this appt. but I know he is due for chemo and I am hoping we can wait until Monday.

God is good and God has a plan. We are looking to the future to see what God has in store for our family. Please keep us in your prayers like you always do. Pray for Gary's speedy recovery and strength. Pray for his peace of mind. Pray for healing and a solution for his sciatic pain in his left leg. BUT, before you pray and ask these things of God remember to thank Him for all the wonders and beauty of the world and for the poeple like you that are in it!

Disclaimer: I am not responsible for any typos in this blog. Too tired for spell check tonight. :)

Love and Smiles,
L & G (he only gets his initial if he has input and that he did tonight! )