Short Update

I have had a bad day today. Ren and The Poole's showed up tonight with goodies and flowers for me and that cheered me up a bit.

Valentines Day marked our 14th Anniversary of our first date and kiss. Today would have been our 13th Wedding Anniversary.
The boys have been clingy to say the least. No sleepovers anywhere. In my room glued to me. Understandable.

Today the boys were beyond whiney and they spent the day complaining and crying about not having a Dad. I totally understand but today for I guess obvious reason it took its toll on me and I felt like I was going to crack!
I saw a photo of Gary in the boys room yesterday and I know why I took them all down. It is very hard for me to look at pics of him.

They don't even understand that this affects me too. They aren't suppose to. They are young.
I just need a time out I guess. Too much emotional turmoil for me today. I do not function well in chaos and highly charged emotional environments.

I need to go. I will remember to tell you in the next few days about Zach's first experience with law enforcement.
Gotcha wondering, don't I?

Have a happy night.
Love, L