Hanging In

Hi everyone. It is Mnnday night and I am sitting by the fireplace trying to get warm. Dax and Trey are running around after Hobie and the boys are playing with Matt's iPhone. Matt and Zach went for a run and Jen and I are going to the gym again tonight after the boys all go to bed.

The boys went back to school for the first day today. It started out rough as Zach had a panic attack last night followed by a night of vomitting! Most of the night was spent helping him and cleaning up the bathroom! Can he not SEE the toilet???? He threw up all over everything but the toilet. I feel awful for him. He is struggling as all of us are. I think we had a good talk and he seemed to adjust to school towards the end of the day.

Jax and Nate and Zach pulled all of their Christmas and Birthday monies together to purchase the iTouch today. They love to play games on that thing. Let's see how they do sharing!

I forgot how much I loved working out at the gym! I missed it the past few months as Gary grew sicker. It no longer became a priority of mine but now that Gary has died it is a HUGE priority and Gary would be so happy. He knows how much I love going.

I dream about him every night. I had to take down all of his photos and put away everything that reminds me of him for now. It is TOO painful and RAW. It's hard to listen to music or smell his cologne on the boys. I finally got his car back from the shop and Zach was happy to see it in front of the house this afternoon.

We are looking for a female wheaten. I have to be honest - haven't looked that hard. But, the right opportunity will come along and I will seize it. I have so many kennel contacts so I am sure when I get to it things will happen quickly. It will be good for Hobie and that means good for me as I will go back to school full-time in the fall and be working lots at the church. Hobie has always had Gary and this way he will not be alone all the time! He is such a good dog.

Nate and Jax are processing through Gary's death much differently than Zach. They cry and get sad BUT they ask lots of questions every day. Did Daddy like this? What age was Daddy when he did this? So many questions. I am so glad they are talking about it. I am enrolling the boys in an art class that promotes expression of feelings. Even if it benefits one of them it will be worth it.

Pick Up Stix for dinner. Early bedtime for the boys. Gym for me!!!

Thank you all for your continued love and support. We love our family and friends and cherish all of you!!

xoxoxo
Lisa