Reality

ASSURANCE for the day for all of you:

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalitites nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39
Gary gets to experience Christ right here and right now. That is an amazing thing.


UPDATE
Both Gary's parents and my parents are weathering a MAJOR winter storm. My parents have no power, no heat and they are not able to drive in the ice. They are huddled under the covers and are cooking on a Coleman stove with propane. I know Gary's folks are probably in the same boat. I feel a tad bit guilty enjoying the 70 degree weather we are having!

Reality sets in - in a new way every day - for me.

Every corner I turn I am reminded that Gary is dead. I no longer have a husband. It is a pretty hard pill to swallow. I am a single mother of three small boys who solely depend on me for everything. I have to re-do my life insurance and put together a Living Trust. I go to the gym - I am alone. I go to the grocery - I am alone. I fill out paperwork - still alone. I get into bed at night - really alone. No more conversations with Gary about our days or the kids or laughing about so many things. I guess I could laugh alone but people might think there is something wrong with me. (Hey now. No snickers.) :)

I got the Death Certificates in the mail today. I also FINALLY got the call that Gary's remains are ready to pick up. I will do that when the kids are at school tomorrow. I know I am still in shock. Numb most days. Sometimes it really hits me and I am overwhelmingly sad. Other times I can go about my business with relative ease and not think about my life. I miss him so much and I just wish we had more time together on earth.

Hobie is okay physically we think. I am waiting for the results fo the bloodwork tomorrow but both the Vet and I think they will be normal. Hobie has been diagnosed with depression and anxiety. The vet does not see many cases like Hobie but he has. I am not going to put him on doggie downers. He needs time just like the rest of us. I feel really bad for him because I can't talk to him. Our actions will be what helps him through this. He loved Gary so much and he was always with him. We will all be patient and loving with him.

I have my Facebook up and running. So many of you have a Facebook account. It should be fun trying to manage that.

I have a dumpster being delivered Friday. I can't wait to PITCH DITCH DUMP and TRASH so much junk that has been around this house for so long!!! I am more excited about that than anything else!

Off to the Apple store.

Love to you all,
L