Okay. I guess if we have been confused then I expect you are as well.
I will try to explain everything very clearly to you so that hopefully you can be at peace with all that we are going through.
Plain and Simple - Gary is in the process of dying and he is reaching the end of his life as we know it.
Gary has pain from the cancer that he is no longer able to live with.
Gary has multiple infections in his body that we are no longer treating with antibiotics because we have been unable to control his pain.
Gary has in essence reached his breaking point.
Gary has lived with unimaginable pain for almost 2 years now. Granted he has had some "breaks" briefly with pain control but they have been few and far between.
The cancer in his bone in that left leg is getting worse by the day. On the dreaded pain scale Gary averages about a 7-8 every single day unless he is sleeping and that is unacceptable.
We are now on Hospice. This means we are no longer treating his disease and our goal is to make him comfortable.
To make Gary comfortable we are unfortunately unable to keep him awake and coherent. We will have to give him heavy doses of pain medication to get him out of pain. We are going to start this process on Monday.
We have gradually turned up his pain pump over the past 2 days and we have added liquid morphine for the break through pain. All of the other meds are still on board as well. He is more sleepy than usual but is still eating like a horse!
We are not sure as to how long Gary will live from this moment on. We will take each day as it comes.
I thank you for your patience and hope I have explained things so that you understand.
I just thank God for all that we have and the time we have had together!
All my love,
L
Saturday, January 3, 2009
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Gary & Lisa - it was so great to see you today at Mountainview. I am so amazed at your strength and inspired by it. My heart has so much love for you all and I know that Gary has touched so many people.
It is with a great sadness and heavy heart knowing that the end is near; but I am grateful that your journey will end your unbearable pain. You are a wonderful man!
Gary and Lisa, I too was at the service this morning to hear you both speak. What a wonderful testimony your life has been, Gary. Your unrelenting faith in our Lord and Savior has shone through your life, even in your tremendous pain and suffering. Your precious boys have seen first hand what it is to be a strong and faithful man of God. What a legacy to leave them with. Soon you will be resting in the arms of our God, free of pain and the cares of this world. You have definately left your mark on this world. Your are loved!
Gary & Lisa, I do not know you but follow your blog and pray for you and your family daily. Extra prayers for you at this time.
Ok, I went two days without checking your blog and found out that I missed Gary speaking at church. Though I do not attend Mountain View I would have attended just to give him a standing ovation for everything he, you and the boys have been through. Everytime I read your blog and everyday when I pray for your family I smile at what a loving example you have been, not only to your friends and family, but to people you do not even know. Though I am not a close friend, I wanted you to know how much your words of wisdom and honesty have impacted me.
I firmly believe that God has performed wonderful works through Gary and your family and these works will play out for years to come with all who have had contact with you - even if on the periphery.
I pray that God wraps his gentle loving arms around Gary and softly, graciously, and lovingly brings him home and that you Lisa and the boys will find comfort in knowing that Gary will always be watching over you and guiding you except without the pain and cancer that has overwhelmed his physical body.
Peace & love - Lori May
Dear Gary, Lisa & boys,
I'm so sad that I didn't see this email until now. Although we no longer attend Mountainview we check the blog and would have gone today to see Gary speak. Your family was very kind to us and touched my family deeply during our time at Mountainview. I don't know if you'll even remember us but, I want you to know we are praying for you! I'm praying for a pain free homecomming for Gary. I'm praying for Lisa's strength and faith to sustain her with Gary's passing. Thank you Lord for surrounding Gary, Lisa & the boys with your love!
I'm glad that Gary will soon be out of pain. When Jenn's Dad was in the hospital last year, that liquid morphine was a Godsend!
The way you have tied up all the loose ends to reach this point, is a testament to your strength, tenacity and unwavering love. It is something your boys, even at their ages, will never forget.
God love ya! xoxo
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