WEDNESDAY AFTER MIDNIGHT/THURSDAY EARLY AM

Thursday early morning.

It is 2:20 AM and it is official that I have insomnia tonight. I absolutely can not sleep. I have never been one to be alone and always hated it when Gary traveled. I kept my promise to Gary and was in bed by 11 PM but I am struggling to not toss and turn and actually get a decent amount of rest.

I missed the boys today and it was good to get home to them even though I did not want to leave Gary. It is such a balancing act – Gary’s care, the kids, my job, the house, the after school activities, feeding everyone, doing laundry and on and on and on. Thankfully everything I do when not watching over Gary keeps me on target and emotionally stable. I thank God for my job and all of the daily things that I do.

We got Gary situated at Hoag. He has been in so much pain and the doctors are trying to get control over it. I hope he can sleep most of the night. He needs a break from the pain. He has endured so much. Day after day. Night after night. Ridiculous amounts of pain in which he has had an incredible tolerance to. It is gut wrenching watching someone you love so much go through so much.

Gary’s parents should be here this afternoon. They are flying into SNA and will rent a car and go straight to the hospital. It will be good for them to spend some time with Gary.

The doctors have ordered some tests today. Gary needs to have an abdominal xray panel and a CT w/ contrast on his lungs, abdomen and pelvis. They will compare the scans from a few weeks ago to see if there are any changes in his tumors. It will probably be a really long day today.

Well, I guess I should try and sleep a little. I can feel my eyes burning and I am just getting over having a terrible sore throat and sinus congestion. I can’t afford to have a relapse.

I promise to keep you all updated tomorrow as we find things out. If I have not posted then I don’t know anything yet. I know a few of you read these long-winded posts and wait to hear from us.

Please pray for everyone who is helping us and caring for us. I am sure all of these people need some strength and peace and patience as much as we do.

Pray for the kids. They are struggling with Gary being in the hospital. They will get to see him right after school today. Pray that somehow they understand just a little that Gary is sick and we are trying to help him. It is seemingly simple to us to think this way but for kids it is so hard to understand why their Dad has cancer and has to go through all of this.

My prayer for all of you is that through this nasty, destructive and sickening battle we fight against this cancer that you come to know how much God loves you and is always with you. I tell you this because despite everything that is happening we have always given our lives to God and know there is a plan for everything. Gary is so precious and my prayer is that we win this battle and Gary is restored!

Have a wonderful day!

Lisa