There Have Been Better Days

Did any of you see the season finale of The Bachelorette? If I say anything the ending will be ruined for those of you who might have DVRed it. Just watch and weep with me!

Today was simply a BAD DAY for my man. Gary was not feeling well and it started first thing this morning! I can tell when he is really feeling awful. In the mornings I sit at the vanity and Gary walks by me to use the restroom. He will always touch me as he walks by, tell me he loves me and says good morning. Do you think he did that this morning? Nope. Nothing.

He was snappy at the boys (low on the patience scale) on our way up to the office and then at the office he had his moments of snappiness as well. He was extremely untalkative and he has not smiled ALL DAY.

I feel so bad for him BUT at the same time I have developed zero tolerance for snappiness. Just because Gary has cancer does not give him the automatic right to be snappy! If you don't have anything nice to say - zippy your lippy! You are all thinking how harsh I am and what a b#@ch. Whatever. You can come to my house and live in my shoes day after day and we will see how you handle the snappiness! My new motto is HAPPINESS not SNAPPINESS!

He really wasn't that bad to be honest with you and I am not complaining because he always tries so incredibly hard not allow his pain and discomfot affect us. It happens from time to time and it is okay! But only from time to time! Crack that whip!!!

He was doing a little better tonight and Angela surprised him with her FAMOUS homemade Dump Cake. Gary LOVES that cake and he was stoked she made it for him. He enjoyed a very large helping of it tonight after he ate 4 hot dogs. Oh yeah. I forgot to tell you that after losing 14 lbs last week he successfully gained 7 back over the weekend. We will give the credit for this weight gain to donuts, twice baked potatoes smothered in cheese, burgers, fries, milkshakes, Dump Cake, cookies, ice cream and so many other fattening things he shoveled down his throat. Wouldn't it be great to actually HAVE to gain weight? What woman wouldn't want that problem???

Gary's platelets fell today and are hovering around 65. He should be between 150-400. If his counts do not go above 100 by Wednesday then he will not be able to have his scheduled treatment. We will have to wait and see.

Let's pray for HAPPINESS for Gary tomorrow. Hopefully he will feel much better and be able to smile. Nothing sucks more than when you feel like crap.

Please keep praying for TOTAL SPONTANEOUS REMISSION for this stupid cancer in Gary's body. We want it to GO AWAY FOREVER!

God loves you and so do we!
Good Night!

Love, L