My Little Bargain Hunters

As promised..........The garage sale find of the year....................
A Trek 26" mountain bike with shocks and 24 gears for.....................$40.00!
Zach and Nate are stoked. Good job boys.

We are actually home tonight. No social events. No phone calls. Just us. Hanging out. Enjoying the KCA (Kids Choice Awards) while the laundry is going and the sinks are bleaching.

Baseball was long today. Both Nate and Zach's games were 2 1/2 hours. It was a beautiful day though and if I could get Jax to stop chewing his glove while in the field I would be an even happier baseball mom!

My friend Ron who owns Audiofonix did a great job installing my DVD player and back up camera in our car. I have no idea how to work anything but he will give me a tutorial tomorrow. The boys love the car BUT are bummed they cannot eat in it. They think I am going to cave. Zach told someone to just give me a week and they will all be eating and drinking in this car! Fat chance in hell! Mark my words.

I just love my boys. I love the people who surround me each day. I love laughing with my girlfriends.
I miss my life before Gary died. I miss Gary. I can't even look at a photo of him yet I have a hard time even remembering our life before cancer. It is a true battle of the mind each day. Everything around me is happy. Smiles and love and good times and fond memories. Yet, I have a small piece of me that feels empty. I am very used to being married. I loved being married. Being single is not something I would have ever wished for. Being alone is not for me but I bet I am going to learn a lot about myself and having to be 3 little boys "everything" is a sobering reality check.

Today it seems like Gary died a long time ago. Zach and I were just having a conversation about this. Why does it seem like so much time has passed? He died January 10th and it is now March 28th. 10 weeks. That really is not a whole lot of time. It seems like years. Maybe because he was so sick for so long. I dunno. I could sit here all night trying to figure out the whole concept of time but I am not going to.

I guess I will feel sad for a little while longer. I think seeing his photo tonight triggered this sadness. I occasionally come across pictures and I just have to look the other way even though I really want to look at them.

Over Spring Break the kids and I are going to go to the Getty Museum and to the Griffith Observatory to see Gary's star. They have been asking me to do this so we are going for sure! I hope we can find it through that awesome telescope they have.

Hurley and Hobie had playdates today and they are whipped. Yes, I finally cleaned up the dog poop in my dining room Kelley! No more poop in the house! I have been vacuuming but both dogs hate the vacuum cleaner so I am taking a break from that for a while.

Zach is reading next to me and the boys are tired and ready for bed. Home Group is coming for dinner and fun tomorrow night and we are grilling out.

I have no words of wisdom for any of you. Too tired.
Boys are in the showers. I need to get some clean towels to them.

I think everyone should get up tomorrow morning and go to church. Thank God for everything in your life. What doesn't kill you will truly make you stronger. Hopefully I get stronger each day. Thankful I am. Thankful to God for the gift of my children and of my life and my friends and family. Thankful that HE is in control and I am not.

Ciao,

xo Lisa